Hello, I am new to the forum.
I have been spending an inordinate amount of time trying to figure out my mbti type, which has been very confusing, but I think I just have to accept that finding the perfect reflection/fit is like finding the perfect soulmate; impossible.
I used to test INFx and recently more often INFP. I think that my behavior during stable times of life reflects INFP, however my heavily plutonian astrology chart (moon, mercury, venus, pluto in Scorpio, Sun (libra) and mars (libra) in 8th house virgo) has created a sense of drama that is not typically an INFP thing. I very much related to the devouring, unbalanced and violent INFJ love style throughout most of my twenties… and also spent many years immersing myself in studying the dark side of human psychology/condition. I was obsessed with Lars Von Trier for a while… Dogville, anyone? That reminds me of INFJ vengeance… and the main character for most of the movie acts like the epitome of INFP morality, then turns around and… I won’t spoil the movie in case you haven’t seen it… but does anyone else familiar with Lars Von Trier’s work find that it resonates with INFJdom?
Anyway, perhaps I was just an INFP having a crisis as Saturn rolled over all my scorpio planets… I relate to both archetypes but my actions in response to being hurt 70% of the time is passive… I don’t know why I’m so concerned with figuring out what type I truly am, but it might have to do with paranoia that I am unable to see the truth of my life and relationships due to being easily taken advantage of (INFP). Sometimes I get annoyed at my own jellyfishness because life is not made of pillows. Maybe I’m just in denial of my type, INFP.
How do INFPs gain confidence and not roil in inability to make decisions and have a sense of self???