Edit to say: im a primary Ne user and have been described by clients of mine as "like mercury on a table"
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I’m a guy who memorizes songs and movie lines and such. I have what feels like a recorder in my head for the rhythm and pitch. My autistic son is super good at it too and walks around quoting Amazon Alexa’s intros before singing. “Music from Wall-E: the major motion picture. Soundtrack by various Vartis.” He’s four so the word is Vartis.
“out there–there’s a world outside of Yonkers…”
My son says almost nothing that isn’t a quote from a song or a movie but he’s mixing and mashing so well it’s becoming useful. “I love your dress!” from zootopia wasn’t a real hit for the male cashier at Safeway, but five months later he’s working with "I love your -
color they are wearing + article of clothing, and his closer is grabbing someone’s face when they get close to him, staring at their eyes, then saying “I love your accurate eye color eyes!” It sounds like the first time every time. Specifically it sounds like Judy Hopps.
It’s very clear to me that he memorizes sounds way before words. I do the same thing. In school on tests I would have the answers flash into my head intact rhythmically as the teacher had stated them a month earlier or as I’d read them in my mind.
In college i studied a famous writers stuff because I had a good essay ready to submit for a contest in his namesake. I spent about 20 days 6 hrs a day revising after studying his stuff, after basically imprinting the rhythm of how he thinks, since I knew in this first year of this contest the judges would be biased toward something that felt like his stuff, but with, as they say, a new and strikingly original, lol, eye. won $10k and got an agent and such. I revised the 30 page piece by reading it aloud back to front until every sentence felt as good as it possibly could – literally, objectively as good as is possible – in my mouth. Good in the way that the anonymous judges would define it, I assumed. I learned in the end I was the only not Ivy League short listed on this thing, but I had actuslly like written an acceptance speech and really i expected to win. Me and a Nobel prize winner got awards lol. This world. There was Wolfe in a white suit, there was Joan Didion with a glass of wine in the doorway to the women’s restroom in the middle of Calvin Trillin doing whatever the fuck he does and whatever the fuck the New Yorker does in general. Well, I love it. I take it in print like a fucking hipster. I read it and stuff. I’m off topic.
That’s fun to write out but I hope it also serves the thread a bit. The point is that I memorize like a machine. 100s of scriptures as a kid I can still recite. My mom had me put them to music. all of literature and art is audio for me, and I don’t listen to music much because it’s too hard to enjoy. Except for a few brilliant people. Kendrick Lamar, for example. I don’t know hip hop one bit, but he’s legitimately brilliant, Doing something. Hmm. My little brothers shit, though he’ll likely check out of planetary existence before he gets the chance to do anything meaningful with it.
When I’m alone I make noises all the time. Didn’t know that until I started seeing my son do it.
It’s interesting stuff. Echolalia. But also I do a lot of socializing as sonar.
I don’t wear contacts so that I can’t see very well. That’s been a new thing for almost a year. Loving it.
Oh and also as a kid my ears used to do an audio hallucination where it seemed the world was suddenly turned up to 11, and yet it was simultaneously clear to me that the world was not turned up and I was hallucinating. That lasted 10-60 minutes a session, 30 times a year, tapering steeply in my teens.
And I listened to les miserables and newsies many times a day.
And I read a shit ton, mostly scripture, as a kid. But didn’t like good literature until 9th grade Shakespeare which blew my fucking mind. Just, kapwoooosh. Splat. After that the best of the best are in real live actual fact David a Foster Wallace and then, for me, Dostoevsky. I’ve only read like 200 pages of the later total. But it only takes one page really. Hell, one line, with Shakespeare, to get what it is. And Jonathan franzen who has the Tempo of a Russian for me somehow.
And when I did door to door pest control sales in Florida I would have to fight really really hard not to accidentally imitate people’s speech style within seconds of the door opening. Boston, NY, Cuba, puert rico, DR, southern, Southern, northern Florida southern, four seconds later I’m hearing myself speak like a different person.
So it’s all rhythm for me. I’ve been clicking my teeth to a rhythm since I can remember and I was doing it just now when i started typing this sentence.
Edit… hmmm it occurs to me that I let this rhythmic tension off occasionally via dance / writing / improvising with my voice. I’m pretty sure all this stuff is related to memory so I hope you don’t feel thread murdered. Here’s a link to a pretty creative ball of steaming energy that I really cringe listening too but it’s also, I admit, a good representation of my tempo and rhythm. After listening to hip hop the first time in my life, days and days of Kendrick Lamar at the insisting of my brothers, i had to reflect something back. All of like 10 people have heard it and only anonymously-- careful with your volume, starts loud and weird: https://bumpers.fm/e/ati7o180v6h000shfngg
And I just recorded this, again careful with volume, it’s not pleasant. the sound of me while reading this forum, clicking my teeth. Phone pressed to my jaw to catch it better.
Gets more clear 15 seconds in or so.
I think I do this to Block sensation. It’s like stimming maybe.