Happy Saturday, everyone!
I had a revelation the other day that I wish to share with you, or this space, or whatever…
I was working, and everyone got an email for a last minute call-in meeting. There was no information as to what this meeting was about. Just a spur of the moment type thing.
To all of our surprise, it was one of the Directors with an announcement that she is retiring. This is someone who oversees our department and a couple of others, but she doesn’t have daily interactions with us, so I’m sure everyone had a distant feeling towards this interruption in our day. But then she started to say, “This might come as a surprise to some of you because I’ve never talked about retirement, and actually, I’m probably a few years early. But, most recently, probably within the last year, I’ve realized that life is short. I want to enjoy the rest of what life has to offer.”
And something hit me. It hit me hard. Just - “Life is short.” And I zoomed out. I zoomed way out. I zoomed so far out, I could see our tiny blue planet suspended in time. Suspended in space. And I tried to find me. Tiny me on this tiny, but comparatively large planet. And I realized, life is short.
I am an ENFJ, and I am extremely driven in career life. I’ve gone through many stages to get where I am now. Only five years ago, I was riding my bike to work because we couldn’t afford another car. After being donated an '88 Olds 98, I was able to get a different job. Farther away, this company would be able to pay for schooling. After some time, I was able to purchase a modern car (with air bags), which was good, because my internship was an hour away. And now, I have finished some schooling, I have a degree, and two certificates. I work from home and have a steady, comfortable income. I feel like I could continue schooling. Become a leader in some format. Make more money. Make more of an impact.
“Life is short.”
After listening in on this short conference call with an even shorter message, I made a huge decision. To not continue schooling for a higher degree. My husband is very cool with it, however, I have not told my family. I know they will support me and my decision, but I am still deathly afraid of looking like a failure.
I have professional and educational mentors who have always told me - you will be leading. You’re a leader. I’ve heard it all of my life actually. This has motivated me in the professional part of my life. I’ve put all of my energy towards this. Towards education and networking and being better, making more money, having the potential to do more stuff, have more stuff.
“Life is short.”
After this phone call, it dawned on me. Why am I continuing my education? My answer: To make more money; to be a leader. And I began to imagine my life with “more money”. I would be working more, most definitely. I would have to travel to work. I would have more stress, and yes more money, but time to enjoy it? I don’t know. So I thought, why not have less money, and more time - instead of the other way around?
This may not seem like a huge deal to most, but for me, I made the most impacting decision to stay content with where I currently am and focus my energy on life outside of work. Because, there are more important things in life than money and work.
It will take me a little while to get over my pride. It will take some time to convince my brain that there is more to life. But I know I will win my brain over. My soul will help
Because, after all…
Life is short.