I’ve been thinking a lot about Ti versus Te today. And WHERE I perceive truth to “lie”. I can’t figure out if Ni is the truth function or T. N+T seems to have something to do with truth.
In any case I experience a version of “truth” as outside of me. I don’t know if it’s Ne or Te. Or Ni+Te. Or is it mostly Ne?
For example, say I have to install baseboard. I am immediately and very quickly aware of how the corners must line up and how the measurements and cuts will have to be clean. The actual baseboard is not perceived. The way the nails are hidden is not perceived. But the constraints are. I can even sense weights of external force. But it’s very external to me. I’m not describing a process here. Why do I call it truth? Because it’s TRUE, those corners must line up haha:) unless I’m going for a weird full of gaps style. Evident:)
Another crazy example…my intp said he’d like curtains to darken the bedroom. I started the task like one month ago. We still have no curtains. Why?
I’ve been taking way too hard a look at that task as if this were a fucking science project. I don’t know why this task in particular…what the heck. Have been scanning like some fucking radar for possible options, but then I look so hard at each option.
Option 1: mostly likely stinks like chemicals
Option 2: do I really want to sew, and pull out a special foot on the machine
(dies of boredom)
Option 3: won’t wash easy
Option 4: what’s a curtain, can I just hang slats? but then somehow drawn back into what about this task and cracking it.
Option 5: won’t wash at all but is safe
Option 6: safe, costs more, must replace as it disintegrates probably in a few years
and on and on…meanwhile we just melt every morning as the sun streams in during our coronavirus lazy mornings.
Option 7: wake up before the sun heats the room? NAH
Anyhow, it’s like a tail spin of options and constraints (ne and te) and outcomes (Ni?)
And I’m bad at it in the sense that if I look into it then I look into it and then keep looking at it. Sometimes my Te will kick in and VERY FAST figure it out. But it seems so random when it does or doesn’t. I think the reason that Te often doesn’t kick in is that I literally “see Te” OUT THERE, in the universe, and the universe has a really amazing operation. I forget to own it and drive it. I’m so busy looking.
Ah so pointless.
Okay, in general, with anything, I’m always scanning the horizon for options and constraints. Total yoyo between what can be and what can’t. There is a lot of truthiness in the constraints. But Ne’s job is to then sort of sidestep. So the constraints multiply rather than guide.
Till lightning strikes and out of the blue, Te goes BAM.
With an error rate of like 80 % haha. When I strike, my intp thinks it’s actually kind of hot, lol, except for when he thinks it’s dickish, darn.
Anyhow if I contrast to Ti. My intp if he needs to do baseboard, goes about it totally differently. He sees nothing immediately. He often says “wait”. He slowly familiarizes himself with the baseboard, or at least with aspects of the baseboard. He researches and emergently he will begin to orient himself toward some kind of approach based on knowing the parts but also knowing a concept of how one can go about it. Perhaps there are constraints but they just seem to be a part of constructing the picture. I’m not sure “force” is experienced by him. Maybe “weight” but I think less so for some reason. Dunno. But maybe weight.
So there is this really hard truth OUT THERE. I believe it. It’s unbending and quite mysterious. It’s harsh and beautiful and more deeply moving than humanity itself. How can that be though? Isn’t the human at the center of everything? Well have you ever been totally surprised by an occurrence? Have you ever seen iron rusting…how could humans be at the center of it? What’s up with that iron rusting. Try to come up with a human-centered explanation:D
For infp, there is another Fi truth inside as well but that one is totally subjective. The truth out there is objective, it’s like there for the picking and bumping into, obstacles and feedback loops.
So it’s interesting to me what the heck Ti is…a subjective objective truth. Kind of cool.
As I speak, wind is hammering the trees, and well that’s truer than anything else. What could be truer than that. The massive oaks are moving. The sight is completely dimmed by rain and a dust cloud supposedly is passing overhead from half way around the planet.
It would be cool for infp as they get older to start integrating Te. I think it will feel very good. To be willing to align with constraints is the ULTIMATE Ne.
What a fucking high.
anyhow i’d love to hear a human-centered explanation for iron rusting…lol, what would it look like…i could picture someone seeing themselves into the process of rusting i guess. someone might try to let it reflect something about themselves.
but what would it look like if you blur the lines and see no distinction between the natural time-based process of rusting and subjective reflection to the point that you almost don’t see the iron as rusting outside of yourself. is it a thing?