i learned this before i was married. my mom noticed this about me.
i would randomly go
“mom, what is life?, what is happiness?, what makes people truly happy? am i happy?, mom, i just wanna die…(hits myself on furniture). FUAACKKKKK!!!”
mom: you need to eat.
me: this is NOT about food!!! i’m not a dog! i’m asking you a serious question!!!
me: hahahah wait, why was i screaming again?
i swear i get randomly philosophical for no reason when i’m hungry. it’s so crazy. (Ti)
it’s a sign that i’m hungry. hahaha
and then i start feeling lonely. (Fe)
and then i start thinking weird possibilities in the future. starts doubting everything. (Ni)
YES. maybe this is Ti happiness? i need to learn something everyday for me to fall asleep.
ohhhh wow. this kinda makes sense.
my wife hates a messy house.
she likes to clean and decorate to make it look nice. i wonder what that is. Fi?
but her Se is not so much food. it’s more physical touch she craves.
holy crap. what the heck
are you sure you’re not an ESFP? or ESTP? hahaha
no jk. but i wonder why this is…
you can practically take medical marijuana pill or smoke one and experience it.
i promise you. you will not feel emotions as much.
but if you are against drugs. then … xP
but when i’m high, or when i’m on cannabis, i get emotional instead.
and because i’m not ‘used to feeling emotion’, it’s too overwhelming for me.
and sometimes it will lead me into paranoia.
i get sensitive and butt-hurt about things i would typically not care so much about.
and it makes me think, ‘wow, i feel bad for people with so much emotions. it’s too much work!’
that’s why i don’t do drugs. i hate it. i love being me.
sometimes i want to feel emotion so i can experience super joy and happiness on my body.
but having emotion doesn’t always come with just good things.